i'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk from my holiday hoahoahoa :D:D
Merry X'mas n Hepi Niu Year All......................
telad banget hahoahoahoa :D abisnya kmr2 cuma sempet narcis ria plus belanja, belanja n belanja :D
smlm plg dr sing lgs ngobrol ma cc, tyus skg br sempet buka blog hoahoahoahao dah ah tar br crita2 liburan kmr ;)
akhirnya tgl 23 ampe jg.....tp kenapa hati jd resah...*sigh*
wish we can find "sumthing" in this year holiday.....
taon kmr natalan ga separah ini :p masi bisa pegi nyari kado natal yg berupa sepasang benda
sejak malam natal itulha hubungan kami jd rada2 gimana ampe skg....
still can't believe 1 years ago.....
jia yo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i musy move on.. dun become a foolish girl again...
holiday holiday holiday wish i can enjoy it....
hope so...
feeling so bad... T_T
i think i must move on now :p to have a better future..
n maybe i really must move on...to let him feel more comfortable
i know it's hard for me, n it's hard for him too
but i should try!!! just in case we really can't be together again....
i won't become a crazy girl :D
i should prepare myself for d worst.....
*liyik2 satu cowok*
"kok keknya g kenal ya??"
*sambil lliyik2*
"eh..keknya kenal deh..pernah liat dimana ya??"
*senyuman pelit dr cowok itu*
*bales dgn senyuman yg ga kalah pelit*
"DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!itu kan bozz gw yg tiap ari seruangan plus sering buat bete 1 ofis!!!!!!"
-_-' bener2 deh..knp bisa yak g berikan seuprit senyuman itu.....
menyesal akuh mengingat kejadian itu...
bener2 ga sudi melontarkan sebuah senyuman x-(
horrible weekend......
*liyik2 kalender* H-8 lg mo travelling ke sg n m'sia.....
*liyik2 tabungan* maapkan dakuh ya :D bulan ini ga bisa membiarkan kamu merekah wkakaka :D
tetep harus diculik tuk ganti dullar n ringgit :D
drtd perasaan hati tak tega mau mambuat digit yg uda merekah itu kembali suram :D
*sigh* apakah bener g harus pegi travelling tuk refreshing?
apakah g harus tinggalin smua kerjaan demi g sendiri?
apakah g harus tinggalin bonyok?
bleh!!! feel so confuse...yg plg penting "apakah g harus keluarin duit sebanyak itu" wekekeke *peyit mode*
tp ga tau lha..drtd pagi uda atinya berasa ga enak aja....
mgk gara2 ktm ma makhluk aneh pas bgt setelah absen T_T
bah....smoga hr ini bs ku lalui dgn tenang.....
smoga yg g lakuin ntar bener2 bisa buat g lega....
adoh ati ini....knp drtd pagi berasa susah napas yak
berasa begitu sakit..
apa gara2 travelling, kerjaan n smoa bercampur aduk......
Hepi wedding day yah my dear best fren ^^ i know u'll never read my blog :D hihihi n i know u've forgive me for not attend ur wedding party...
sorry i've lied to u, currently can't tell u d truth. but sumday i'll tell u ;) dun mad at me....
just dun wish u worried 'bout me..n dun wish u'll sad 'coz of me *ceileiiiii* :p
but i still pray for ur happiness ^^ finally u've bcome his wife :p
still remember about 6 years ago *maybe* u came to my class and told me
"what would u do if ur bestfren in relationship with the guy u love??"
"it's ok as long as she told me...it's not sumthing i can control rite :) u have bcome his gf rite??"
"how do u know???" *silly mode*
"i only guess girl...but u told me just now u were in relation with him haha..gotcha"
i still can laugh just bcoz she used a innoncent face n silly question :D
"um..."
"dun worry..i dun angry at all :) i can't force him to love me rite"
"really?"
"ofcoz...dun worry girl..coz i have a feeling dat he loves with u :p"
"bla bla bla bla bla" *conversation continued*
lucky girl, hav sum1 who really luv u...
wish i could find sum1 who really luv me too sumday...i know dat person will come :)
Hepi wedding day my dear best fren ^^
too bad, i can't attend ur wedding party just bcoz my ego...
i wish i will give u d best smile..but i afraid i can't do it..
coz i really need sumtimes to puzzle up my broken heart :p silly me ....but still i pray for ur hepiness ^^GBU
recently miss him so much...but can't like before..msg him..hug him...
miss him so much......
miss him so much......
miss him so much......
miss him so much......
miss him so much......
miss him so much......
*sigh* can he teach me how to walk alone after 5 years he always by myside?
can he teach me how to live without him.....
feel so hurt :( even too difficult for me to breath
can't stop thinking why i can't stop this feeling to loving him, to miss him, to care him, n to hurt just bcoz of him?last nite felt so hurt n couldn't sleep. though i've tried to pursue myself to stop thinking that kind of feeling but couldn't control it...
Congratulation for ur best achievement
though this is not a big deal, but feel so happy for him...
good luck for u n ur career..
maybe i can't always support u, but i know u'll got d best coz God beside u...
GBU
smlm pas lg tggin 'dia' ampe jam 10an tiba2 keinget dulu..wkt ms awal2 kul malam, masa2 lalu kami berdua....disaat g plg jam 9an pasti ditungguin tuk mkn brg. Tyus saat g pegi ma co laen, eh dianya marah besar hahaha....pdhl ma ga salah atuh, g pan wkt itu stress aja liat tingkah laku nya yg 'iya nga iya nga' ma gw :p yah ga salah dunk g pegi ma yg laen, status pan masi jomblo wkakaka....Masi inget jg saat liburan natal tus g plg, die jg plg...ah di telpnya cm pas natal doang, itupun bs diitung cuma brp detik doang. Saat pertama kli ditmnin ke CL, tus pegi beli 1 container imut itu namanya apa ya, yah container imut dah yg berwarna biru plus gambar lucunya tarrepanda. Tyus saat ke cyber accessnya binus, ampe kedinginan. oiya masi inget pas liburan pjg binus yg mencapai 2bulan ada kli yak...yah lebih kurang lha :D pas pertengahan taon ituh loh..pas bgt g ultah, jd g lwtin di btm deh, maklum masi awal2 kul sih wakakak. tyus dia di jkt tgg krs. eh pas tgl 22 jul (2 hr sblm hr-H) ada kiriman dr jkt :p tadaaa sebuah boneka anjing yg lucuuuuuuuu bgt, feel so surprised n happy. tyus berasa pengin nangis ja hehehe, beneran hepi bgt.
tus pernah pas nae 91 die turun duluan di lampu merah bt.sari ntu loh tus lupa tggin g -_-' alhasil uda lampu ijo g dibawa ma 91 nya ampe sebrang jalan wekekekeke (ini dia yg ingetin) hehe..coz bg g mah ga masalah lage, ga berasa apa2 koQ :p tyus masi inget dl pas g ms kul, dia uda kerja..lmyn sering cari alasan tuk jmpt dia plg kerja, ampe pernah kejadian org yg duduk disebelah g kena todong aiz....tp teteup ga kapok :D ms pengin jmpt dia plg kerja :D walaupun tggin di roxi kek org bego gto hehehe..teteup berasa ada sumthing special...tus dulu sering banget masak buat dia padahal pake kompor listrik yg tggin aernya panas aja musti kudu 20menitan hehe. tp teteup g masakin, walaupun butuh 2 jam gto tuk masak T_T aiz.. kompor listrik siy...tp berhubung dl status ms anak kuliahan, sdgkan dia kerja jdnya g masakin deh.tp pas g uda kerja jg kadangan g masakin hehe. kadangan plg tengo khusus tuk masak :D tyus kadangan pagi2 bgn cm tuk masak pagi buat makan berdua sekalian bekal makan siang g di ktr wkakakaka :D biasanya lauknya pasti diabisin siy..katanya enak :"> apalagi rumput laut nya hehe die plg suka deh...
oiya dulu pas kos sering bgt buka lagu duet gto tyus iktin penyanyinya nyanyi2 deh wkakakaka :D dia jg suka nyanyi2 gto sendirian, apalagi dapet lagu baru n dia suka..aiz..kuping nih musti rela dengerin dia nyanyi n muterin tuh mp3 ampe berpuluh2 kale :p wkakakkaaka kadangan klo lagu kesukaan sih gpp tp lama2 eneg jg loh dengerin lagu ituuuuu mlulu :p tyus wkt valentine taon 2003 yah...g pan lg demam lmyn parah lha, berhubung klo lg sakit sedikit manja :p jdnya pas dia dtg lgs g peyuk :x sambil meraung2 kek singa :D wkjakakak ga denk tus dia sodorin 1 lagu cd sambil blg "nih hadiah valentinenya" :p wekekeke..so sweet :p ga tau dah sweetna dimana :D susah diungkapkan wkakaka
yg plg g inget genggaman tangan dia yg kuat2, keknya sih bbrp bulan yg lalu. ga lama2 banget deh..pas jalan2 di BCS (batam city square) hm..feel so comfy aza...keknya erat bgt ampe takut g kabur..
*sigh* those sweet memory....
malming lg sendirian sekalian benah2in liptup jeyek ini nih.....
baru menyadari i've lost a lot of files T_______T jd tiba2 pengin cerita ttg nih liptup :D
my dear liptup di belinya pas taon lalu..ga lama dibtm begitu meliyik2 dgn seksama eh lucu pisan bentuknya imut (baca : 12") n jg beyatnya cuma 2,1kg (tp buat g mati klo bawa die jjs) dengan merk Toshiba Portege A100 lgs deh hati tertawan disana n kaga mau kluar2 dr tokonya wkaka :p alhasil hr itu jg tuh liptup berpindah ke kamar gw...walaupun g belinya seken tp g suka bgt, walaupun byk yg blg "mahal pisan hrg seken nya..bisa buat beli yg baru tuh" but still i love it hoahoahoa walau dipikir2 emg mahal siyy tp gimana yah uda naksir sih hehe..
nih liptup tercinta selama g beli uda buat g shock 2x T_T
pertama LCDnya kebelah jd dua...jgn bayangin fisiknya yg kebelah ye :p g kaga sekasar itu koQ cuma ga tau nape ditengah2 LCDnya nongol 1 garis putih ga mo ilang2 aja..denger2 sih gara2 g sering letakkin buku2 yg berat diatas laptop hahaha *salah sendiri*
tyus gw bawa deh ke simlim deh eh ternyata klo mo ganti musti kudu SGD$400 (what????) hampir aja tereak wakaaaka tp g tahan aja :p mana org2nya nyebelin lage...yeah i'm an indonesian but it doesn't mean i don't have money!!! tp terakhir di renova orgnya ramah pisan tp tunai yg gw bawa kedikitan tar kan jdna ga bisa belanja2 hahaha..akhirnya g biarin aja *eyus2 liptup minta pengertian* g pan mo belanja :D:D:D:D
n u know what?garis ga jelas di LCD skg ilang lenyap :p LCD gw balek lg tuh jd yg mulus wkakakkaakka problem solve without money wkakaka *cium liptup*
kedua kalinya yakni di pagi2 yg cerah banget..disaat g lg goz2 di ym sm aso gw tiba2 litupnya hang..disertai bunyi kretek2..sbnrnya pas lg ol jg uda berasa siyy tp g cuekin saking asiknya T_T tiba2 hang yah terpaksa g pegi mandi wkakaka sekali g nyalain lg krn penasaran lg asik2 chatting siy *alasan* tp ga bisa nyala lg T_T
setelah di cek eh hddnya rusak berat ga bakalan idup lg tetep g cuekin jg sih berharap kek LCD *mimpi* wekekeke tp ternyata emg udah umurnya lha *asal* jdnya pas tmnin nyokap ke sg nyari tiket ny..sekalian g papah nih laptop...
pas di simlim lgs ke renova dengan pedenya, mau cek harga hdd tetep aja sih uda cape jdnya yakin bgt orgnya trustable jdnya lgs masup..eh ga taunya kena tepu gw!!! dia blg hdd skg yg ada di pasaran cuma samsung n apa ya *mikir* yah lupa deh pokoknya ga da toshiba..perasaan sih ragu banget..tp tetep ja tuh kaki dah pegel males kluar lg...mana orgnya kli ini nyebelin bgt haiz..mana pas buka laptop tersayangnya kek lg bongkar apa aja huh!!sebel..pas didlm tggin hdd diganti, isenk2 liyik brosur yg g culik eh!!!ada merk toshiba 80GB harganya cuma beda bbrp dollar aja dengan yg 60GB..*speechless*
seketika itu bagai disambar petir..alhasil keluar dr situ sambil monyong2 :p wkakak sebel bgt deh ampe detik ini masi merasa sebel..
sbnrnya ga cuma itu loh..pas dia bersikukuh tuh power laptop nyala teyus, lha wong hddnnya rusak..biasanya dirumah ga kek gene..dia masi aja bersikukut rusak *sebel* mana biaya reparasinya SGD$60 makan aja deh sendiri sana huh...
at last dia blg biaya instalasi SGD$10 or SGD$20 ya g lupa..oh well i'm not that stupid..i can install it on my own..not need ur help..gene2 instalasi bg g ga sulit2 amet kok, dulu jg sering g utak atik..sebel banget..don't look down at me!!
bener2 pengalaman plg buruk deh..pas plg baru tau tny simlim byk penepu!!!!! lebih recommend Funan deh...
aiz...diitung2 nih liptup tiap x ke sg die pasti ikut T_T yah die mah enak g papah..g yg mapahnya ga enak :p walau cuma 2,1kg teteup beyat banget ga isa dengan leluasanya hunting baju wkaakkakaka next time ga bole ikut lg yah..i need my own space u know :p jd pengin ngmg gini ke liptup tercinta ini
"my dear laptop, dun ever mad at me again ok..i luv u so much....dun ever hurt urself ok? coz i dun have money to repair u again :p wkakakka n dun follow me to sg just this time..ur so heavy wekekeke"
hoahoahoa jd pengin ganti laptop :D:D:D tp ga ah masi tetep sayang nih laptop walaupun uda sering buat g gondok setengah mati wkakaka walau buat g repot...teteup cinta nih laptop..
next time beli laptop, g rasa ini laptop akan teteup ada..untuk anak g aja deh *sok kaya mode* eh tp pas g uda ada anak harusnya nih laptop uda termasuk laptop kuno kali yah hahahahaha :p
"in a world of lies..ur the truth"
this is a lyric from diana ross's song - when u tell me that u love me... this part keeps playing on my mind these days and make me can't stop thinking...
yes..he's my only truth in a world of lies... but why my truth has gone away..
leave just like this? no he dun leave me just like this... he always by myside even when i feels so sad..
he will said "i will stay with u.." even if i dun say a word he will know i feel sad.....
but how long he can stay with me??? we have break up...... though his words comfort me too....
these days we still together..though we have break up..can't believe it...n my friends even him keeps saying
"ur too kind to everyone"
but i know they wants to say "u really a fool"
i admit i'm a fool..but have them ever feels like what i feel now???
if they ever feel this kind of feeling i can very sure they would do like what i do..
coz for me i'm not a fool..i just sacrified for the one that i really really love...who i can't live without..
though we have break up..but hey i do it all with my sincerelly heart....although i hope sum return thats he will back to me. and i never regret i have choose him as a part of my life...
coz i realy love him..
maybe sum of u will think that i'm a fool coz too kind to him..but for me i'm not a fool.....i even can sacrified my life just for him...n dun feel regret..coz he's my true love...
